I’m going to be completely honest here, and tell you I’ve never done this before, and I’m slightly nervous about it. IT Just Works (shameless plug of thanks for the work) designed this little website for me and suggested I write a blog … “A what?!” I thought. Isn’t a blog something that funny people write about interesting things like new recipes, fashion, sport cars and travel?
And therein began my self-defeating chatter. That part of me that says, “no one is going to be interested in this anyway, so it really doesn’t matter if it is any good! Does it?” was spoken really loudly to my defeatist self and (almost) made me email IT Just Works to suggest we just delete the blog section. But, I didn’t.
I always speak with my clients on the first session about the normality of feeling a little anxious … “It’s totally normal if you are feeling a little unsure about what to expect, and to be uncertain about how this first session is going unfold”, I say. I must admit that right now I’m feeling anxious and unsure about this whole new world of blogs! And how this very first blog is “going to unfold!”
I even Googled “How to write a good blog”. But, I soon felt overwhelmed by the information available; the tips, tricks and rules all seemed too much. For once I felt like I (sort of) understood how it must feel to put yourself out there and go to a first session with a psychologist. I have realised how brave all my clients are to sit in a room with me for the first time, a total stranger at that point, and tell their story, and be completely unsure about whether they will be judged/taken seriously/liked.
So, I decided to also be brave and to practice what I preach. To put myself out there and notice the unhelpful chatter … the anxiety … the self-doubt, and to sit with it and start typing anyway ….